I love you,but you wouldn't love me back =')

It's been a zillion times I've keep on repeating the same thing.I love you.I love you.Without having any doubt,my heart keep on giving you all it's best to love you everyday and honestly said,every minute it's missing you.But I told to my heart that you couldn't take it as it is.It always questioning me WHY you couldn't ?Well,I've no answer for it.

As the days goes on,
You keep on telling me that you know who are you to me.You told me that you respect me.But you still did the same thing.You still playing with my heart,my feelings and my fantasy.You know what is it like to suffered in love,and you told me how badly you injured when you were with you ex,but have you ever wonder how amazingly you have injured the one who always keep on saying that he loves you more than his life?

Then you told me that you had enough with me.And you once want me to stop saying that I love you.You used to told me that you want a guy who always cares about you,took you as you are,love you more than anything else,and when I've evolved to be the men of your dream,you tried to get rid of me.You know how hard is it to be your men of your dream?How hard to transformed being HIM instead of being myself?Why you couldn't be aware of any changes that I've made to myself just to show you that I love you more than anything else?

And here come the part where I really get annoyed of my self.

Surprisingly how you managed to make me cried and bagging for your attention everyday and how sick I felt when saw you saying that you in love with another guy who didn't ever tried his best to show you that you are the one for me.I know I wasn't the best,but I've gave you my best in everything just to be with you.How does it feels like to make me hanging on my hopes and how does it feels like to shut my dreams when I was fantasized you in it?

I felt very depressed when ever seeing his face.It's like I've lost a battle between my love and my life.My life isn't getting better as everyone observed,but at least it has been revived by every reminisce that had shattered between us.Every night,I catches every tear drops before it reaches the floor and let our reminisce be the remedy for my injured,insulted and disgraced heart.If you can only observed what had happened to me,and how your presence is needed here,you would know how great  I've suffered in between this catastrophe.Till then,I will always hope that  Allah will open your eyes and heart to see how badly am I needed you in my life. =')